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Over the past few years I've opened my LIFE to the world and I have to say I'm glad I did! It all started with ME wanted to lose weight and stay accountable to someone, but it's turned into a LIFE CHANGE for me!!!
For those of you who have been with me since the beginning you'll re-call my father & brother treating me like crap because of my "Fat Suit". If it wasn't for me sharing my pain with you all I'm not sure where I'd be today!
Along with sharing my Pain I also begin to heal myself and that meant letting go of the NEGATIVE PEOPLE in my life... No problem! Well YES it's been a problem...
It's hard to let go of people you love because then you feel like you’re the problem (at least that’s how I feel) but I know in my head I'm not but it's hard to not feel the pain in my HEART!
So where am I going with this?
I'm pregnant and very much in love with the man of my dreams!!! I'm in the most Happiest/Important times in my life!!! You'd think my family would be HAPPY as well, but I guess my family (my dad & brother) are different (hmmm did I just say that)? I should know better huh!?
I guess I thought people could change! (After writing that I just realized YOU can change but that doesn't mean the people around you will!)
So the answer to my problems is to move on right!?
Well after Thanksgiving my answer to that question is YES! but I still HURT at the thought of thinking I won't have a relationship with my Dad or Brother, but again after writing this DO I HAVE A RELATIONSHIP with them to begin with? NO!!
Here's what’s been going on...
Being Pregnant I've gained weight and once again the FAT JOKES start rolling in (this is at Thanksgiving) then a few days later I'm at my dad's expressing how EXCITED I am to find out the BABYS SEX... Well he decides to tell me "you better hope it's a Girl because you’re going to have a hard time raising a boy"... Mind you I think it's a boy at this point... I go home and CRY!!!
A few days later I had to go back over there and this time I bring the Mister... We now know the sex!!! We tell him how excited we are and that her name will be Brianna Nicole (Bre-Anna) and he proceeds to tell us that the name we picked is a "BLACK NAME" and she's going to have a hard life if we name her that not to mention she's going to be mixed race.... He goes on to tell us that we don't know what we're getting into and basically we're stupid without saying those words!
We left there both upset, but sadly The Mister was very hurt by my dads words!!! I was too but I've lived with his words for 28 years and try not to think to much into them.... With that being said RELLY!?! My dad just did that to ME & THE MAN I LOVE & To our little baby!?
I've had a few days to think about it all and sadly I will be removing myself from him, but it's going to be hard.... TEARS!!!!
Any advice would be great! I LOVE YOU ALL!!!
and I can't say THANK YOU ENOUGH FOR YOUR SUPPORT!!!!
xoxoxo
((hugs))
gayle
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I'm so sorry you had to go through all of that! I myself have quite a few family members that are exactly like that. You have to decide if you and your new family can accept them for who they are and not expect them to change or remove yourself completely.
If it helps I decided to remove my family from these members completely. I don't care what they had to say to me because I can very much defend myself but I refuse to let them around my children. If those are the morals that they want to live by that's fine, but that is not something I want pressed onto my boys. I am aware that they will have to deal with people like that in the real world, and I am not sheltering them by any means. I just don't feel that they should be around what I like to call "toxic" family members. This might sound like an off the wall analogy but I kind of think of it like cigarettes. It's not healthy at all to be around, the person doing it is hurting everyone around them, and just because that's what they choose to do does not mean I have to let my boys be affected by it. It also can be used for the people that tell me I'm sheltering them. I won't let anyone smoke in the house or around them but we do encounter it in public whether we like it or not right?!
I really hope this helps in some sort of way. Just remember you have to do what you feel is best for you guys and your baby girl and if you need to talk you can call me anytime! I promise you I understand more than you think :o)
BTW~Brianna is so not a "black name" and even if it is who cares?! I wasn't really that aware that names had races anyway! You guys like it that's all that matters!!! People still tell me Zane is too off the wall and Ethan is too old of a name. Everyone has an opinion about it all when it comes to YOUR baby lol.
((hugs))
Megean :o)
Love you girl!
I personally know 2 Zane's and my son is Ethan! My oldest actually named him! There will be people who will say something no matter what the name is. And I agree, I didn't realize names had races either! While some may be more nationality related, it doesn't mean that someone else can't have the same name!
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