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Sun, 11 Dec 2011 13:35:00 +0000

ROUND TWO.... or should I say THREE? Really who's counting? Anyways, I'm taking the steps to change my life again and I hope you'll join me! Here's a picture of me after my 1st workout at a NEW CROSSFIT gym in my area. (I will announce the name soon) and YES I will also be updating and posing weekly! Please join me this time!!! In the comments below leave me a message or share your starting weight with me. You don't have to join a gym, just start making SMALL CHANGES and share them with me!

Cinch!

Tue, 05 Jul 2011 00:59:00 +0000

242.0

That's what the scale read this AM. I will take an offical "start" picture in the morning! I've decided to do the Cinch plan because it's a lot like the Zone as in the same types of food, but from the looks of it, it will be easier because she plans all the meals and you just pick which one you would like =)

The first part is a 5 Days "Fast Forward" eatting only 5 things

(eggs, spinach, raspberries, almonds, and yogurt)

I'll check back in Sunday to let you know how it goes and how the next part will go

((hugs))

and thanks again for sticking with ME!

-gayle

Book: Cinch! by Cynthia Sass

REALITY ---- FOOD ---- DEPRESSED?

Mon, 21 Feb 2011 18:30:00 +0000

QUESTION --- Have you joined a gym because in your headed you were ready, but after a month you stop going?

Why is that you ask?

ANSWER --- I’m depressed, and I’m having a hard time excepting that as an answer. So I keep turning to FOOD and lots of it! I got on the scale for the 1st time in a few weeks and I’m up to 220 again!

What’s going on? Why can’t I just commit to the plan? Why am I allowing myself to feel this PAIN again? WHY???

Sorry – this is what’s been going through my head the past few days.

I have PAIN – DEEP PAIN INSIDE – and I’m having a VERY HARD time letting it go!!! It started back in January, we joined a CrossFit gym (cost $150 per mth) and we started a Zone Food Plan (cost $250 a week) --- 3 Weeks in, and REALITY HITS --- we’re losing weight, but the cost of the healthier food has/is causing MONEY STRESS in our relationship (mainly in my head, because I deal with all the money) which then causes me STRESS and I take it out on him *sad face* --- I just don’t want to say we need to switch to a less expensive plan – I’m scared it won’t work! (this is my head talking) I’M SCARED of the UNKNOWN!!!!!

Then I get SICK --- Yay! an excuse to EAT FOOD, and I have ate more food these past few weeks then I would like to admit! I was sick for a good TWO WEEKS – but I’m better now so why and I still putting it off? Why am I scared???

Going a little DEEPER – If you’ve followed my story from the beginning (or if you read my story on this website) you’ll remember me saying something along the lines that my Dad is dying – well last week he called to let me know that his Kidney’s are gone! (he’s waiting to get the vein surgery) – so what does this mean? This means dealing with the PAIN of LOSING HIM!!! – I’m NOT READY to say goodbye!!! – I’ve been so sad these past few days and I know that’s normal, but I’m always MAD!!! HURT!!! SCARED!!!! I just want to SCREAM!!!! I just want to SCREAM!!!!! I hope & pray he will be here another 20 years, but he had the family “get together” to talk about what “May Happen” and that’s where I’m having a HARD TIME! I just don’t want to accept this! I want everything to be NORMAL!!!

Watching a Kidney DVD --- he had us all watch a DVD about Kidney Failure and scary enough the NUMBER 1 on the list was Diabetes – NUMBER 2 on the list High Blood Pressure --- So then I ask myself am I next? Gayle do you really want to kill yourself with FOOD? Because the Reality is THAT! FOOD = WEIGHT GAIN which could = DEATH in my shoes….

So now my QUESTION is HOW do I get past this PAIN and STRESS and Start LIVING AGAIN?

Is the ANSWER really – JUST DO IT? – Is it that easy? If it was don’t you think I would have done it already? Which brings me back to being SCARED – I’m scared that I’ll get healthy again, and as soon as that happens I’ll lose him, and then what? THEN WHAT? I’ll turn to FOOD AGAIN? Any advice???

Why do I give my VOICE inside my head that much POWER??? Why?

I know this is going to take time to adjust and I’m glad that I wrote this BLOG POST because sometimes it’s my only escape! (don’t get me wrong I have The Mister & Family, but they don’t get me like a few of YOU DO!) I can’t promise I’ll update as often, but I will keep in touch!!!

THANKS FOR LISTENING!!!

2011 - The PLAN

Sun, 02 Jan 2011 16:50:00 +0000

Oh how I've missed you guys! Sorry I've been gone for so long, I've been trying to adjust to being a NEW Mommy and I started a business too! So it's been VERY HARD to find any time to blog, but I'm going to DO MY BEST and keep you all updates as I try to REMOVE my FAT SUIT once again! This time I hope you'll join me!!!

This Post is just a List of my/The Mister's FOOD... I hope to share more with you all soon! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

MEAL ONE

ZONE BAR

MEAL TWO

2 – Eggs

½ Cup - Blue Berries

3 – Cashews

1/3 Cup Oatmeal

MEAL THREE

1/2 Cup - Greek Yogurt

3 – Cashews

MEAL FOUR

1 oz Chicken

12 – Asparagus

½ spoon Peanut Butter

½ Apple

1 Egg

MEAL FIVE

Apple Sauce

String Cheese

3 Almonds

MEAL SIX

Spaghetti Squash

Ground Turkey

Tomatoes Sauce

18 Peanuts

You can also see this with Pictures here: http://www.removingmyfatsuit.com/apps/blog/show/622257-call-me-ocd-but-my-fat-suit-is-getting-smaller-

"The Mister" is going to do this also so here is his "Food List"

MEAL ONE

ZONE BAR

MEAL TWO

½ Pita Bread

2 Eggs

2oz Cheese

1oz Ham

1 ½ Apple

MEAL THREE

5oz Chicken

2 ½ Oranges

5 Macadamia Nuts

MEAL FOUR

2oz Grilled Turkey Breast

1 Cup Blue Berries

6 Cashews

MEAL FIVE

1 Egg

½ Orange

6 Peanuts

MEAL SIX

5oz Canned Tuna

Light Mayo

1 Slice Bread

3 Kiwi

SIX WEEK'S POSTPARTUM

Wed, 19 May 2010 23:08:00 +0000

How am I feeling?

NERVOUS & EXCITED

more picture's posted in GALLERY at the top =)

I'm sure you're asking WHY AM I NERVOUS!?

Well to be honest I'm nervous about Removing My Fat Suit AGAIN!

Since giving birth to Brianna I haven't been on a good "Food Plan" and yeah I knew I wasn't going to JUMP back into being super healthy but I did think I would be eating better then what I am!

The wrost part is NO Diary because I'm Breastfeeding and she has REALLY BAD GAS =( So her doctor told me to cut the diary out.... I also stoped Eggs (what do you think) because they give me gas so I'm sure that means she'll get gas too =(

Anyways yeah!

I'm NERVOUS!

So my plan is to start THIS SUNDAY (because Friday is payday) with cooking ALL MY MEALS for the WEEK again! To be honest it's the only way it works for me... to have it all ready so I don't have to cook! Not to mention having a baby it's 100% harder to make/cook ANYTHING HEALTHY!!!! HA who am I kidding... It's hard just to get a meal in PERIOD!!!!

I'm not in a big rush to hit the gym yet... I'm just going to start SMALL & then bulid up to where I was before =) ONE DAY AT A TIME! That was the key that worked for me before!

So YEP Weigh-In's will begin again starting SUNDAY!!!

I'll take Before Picture's again too =)

Why am I EXCITED?

Because I want to feel better! and we all know when we feel better we look better =) Which is a BONUS!!!!

and I'm excited to get all my "ONLINE FRIENDS" back!!!

I've missed you ALL so much!!!!

So here's to another "FAT SUIT REMOVAL"

Are YOU with ME?

xoxoxo

gayle

ps... at my Dr. Appt today I weighed 199.0 (at birth I was 221)

New BABY & NO TIME to post sad face

Wed, 19 May 2010 21:40:00 +0000

I MISS YOU GUYS!!!!

Just an FYI... Today is Six week's postpartum & I have a mintue to update so I wanted to share my feelings as they are NOW and not a few weeks ago...

I have been meaning to post blogs on the following...

--> My Birth Story

-->Day 3 After Birth.... A friends advise

-->Having the BLUES... Didn't think this would happen to me!

-->Daddy's Feeling's (it's hard on both of us)

-->The change.... Now it's the THREE OF US!

-->Breastfeeding.... Some Advice that has helped ME

-->Friends & Your REAL Friends!

So there's the LIST please hold me to them! I hope to have them posted within a month from this date... MAY 19th, 2010

Again THANK YOU for all the LOVE & SUPPORT!

((hugs))

A NEW Mommy -gayle

Daddy's Girl!!!

Fri, 09 Apr 2010 02:05:00 +0000

We have a BABY in the room with us!!!!

We now feel like Mommy & Daddy =)

We couldn't be more happier!!!!

I hope to have a blog posted sometime soon explaining everything that happened to us starting with Monday April 5th, 2010

But for now we are beyond BLESSED to have our amazing GIFT Brianna Nicole!

THANK YOU FOR BEING APART OF OUR NEW FAMILY!!!!

xoxo,

Gayle, The Mister, & Baby Brianna!

We have a NEW FAMILY MEMBER!!!!

Wed, 07 Apr 2010 20:14:00 +0000

BRIANNA NICOLE IS HERE!!!!

Born: April 6th, 2010

At: 2:56pm

Weight: 6lbs 7oz

Height: 19inches

She's my WORLD!!!!

Week 37 "Growth Ultrasound"

Thu, 01 Apr 2010 20:15:00 +0000

We're getting CLOSER!!!

Brianna is now weighing in at 7lbs 7oz.

She's at 78% out of 100%

and she looks AMAZING with lots of HAIR (so they keep saying) LOL

We are getting SO EXCITED!!!

I even started having CONTRACTION'S this week, lastnight they we're every strong but for the most part I can handle them =D

Our DUE DATE is APRIL 21st but they think she'll be here before that...

WHAT DO YOU THINK?

Non-Stess Test...

Mon, 29 Mar 2010 20:20:00 +0000

This is a short Video I took at my 1st Non-Stress Test for Brianna (it's in a bubble, it's called a bubble tweet)

Link: http://bbltwt.com/zecmq

The goal of a NST is to have your babies heartbeat go up from her resting heartbeat 2x in 20mins. I have to go 2x a week because I'm on meds to control my Blood Perssure & they want to make sure she's getting enough blood =)

So far she's been doing AMAZING!!! (in 20mins she goes up 6-7 times) They always tell me how healthy & happy she is, which makes me feel amazing!!!

I've been working really hard to help her healthy!!!

Anything's possible with a little hard work!!!

Eeyore is DONE!!!

Mon, 29 Mar 2010 20:03:00 +0000

YAY!!!

Below him are the 123's (should have done 10 by itself but oh well) in between the number's are little bee's flying to the pot of HONEY =) I love her room =)

Week 35 Check-Up...

Mon, 29 Mar 2010 19:45:00 +0000

Had the Group B Test done, but won't know the results til (I guess) next week... I also got to ask all my L&D questions, (see the video below for what question's I asked) and I feel so much better about going into labor now that I have the answers to questions like (waiting for the cord to stop pulsing, GD stuff, & her views on episiotomy).

She said Brianna looks good as well as my Blood Sugar & Blood Pressure (thank goodness!!). But because I take meds to control my BP I now have to do Non-Stress Test's TWICE a week, and we're now seeing the doc once a week, as So that's 3x week to the doctor office =D FUN!! not....

We had our Baby Shower last weekend and we're over whelmed with everything that was giving to us! It's so nice to have family & friends who care!

(I didn't get to take many pictures but the ones I did get are posted in my Gallery link above)

So this week I'm finishing up her Nursery and washing all her clothes/blankets =D I also started putting things in our hospital bag... (I put a list inside the bag just in case I go into labor The Mister knows what to grab) LOL I love that man!!!!

Well I think thats all for now! Once her room is done (I have to finish painting Eeyore) & everything is put away (from the shower) I'll be ready for her to come =D Yes I know she'll come when she's ready =D

Week 33 Update (didn't have a chance to post this...)

Mon, 29 Mar 2010 19:34:00 +0000

Whew what a weeks it's been for us (The Mister & myself)! On Wedensday last week we had our "Week 33 check-up" and everything went great, Brianna is now or was 4lbs 13oz and she appears to look very healthy (she's also head down)!!! My gestational diabetes seems to be under control with no meds! I'm very happy about that! It was HARD to figure out but I think I have the hang of it. I've been eating what feels like nothing & walking 25mins after every meal (3x a day) and it seems to be working =D

Friday afternoon on my 2nd walk I noticed a stabbing pain down there (my girl parts) but didn't think much of it and finished my walk. When I got home a few hours later the stabbing just didn't feel right so I called the doctor (nurse) she said take it easy & if it gets worse come in to L&D... That whole night was NOT FUN! but I waited it out until the next morning and decided it's better to be safe then sorry so we went to L&D Saturday morning to get checked out. The good news is every thing's fine it's just the way my body is preparing for the BIG DAY! The doctor said that because I'm walking all the time Brianna is just really low and putting pressure on my pelvis/girlie part... I'm becoming a MOMMY!!!

Luckily we got out of L&D with enough time to take our "Comfort Class" which I believed REALLY HELPED with my pain the next day because I seem to feel a lot better after learning all the ways to open my pelvis, plus she gave The Mister a lot of awesome tips on how he can help with my pain. My 2 favorite are the Towel around my butt, where The Mister holds most of my weight while moving me side to side & the wall sit where The Mister holds my belly up so it's taking pressure off my pelvis. I'm SO GLAD we made it to class! Not to mention having Jacqueline is always an A++ =D

Well I believe that's all for week 33... This week (tomorrow & Friday) we meet with *finger's crossed* Briannas doctor, and next week I'll have my "Week 35 check up" which they'll do the Group B Strep test *finger's crossed* that will come back ok!

A day in the life... "Gestational Diabetes"

Mon, 29 Mar 2010 19:31:00 +0000

Video Update: Week 35

Mon, 29 Mar 2010 19:14:00 +0000

Our Birthing Class has come to an END...

Thu, 25 Feb 2010 01:51:00 +0000

Saying goodbye always SUCKS!

So hopefully we'll have FRIENDS FOR LIFE!!!

This class was a LOT of fun and our teacher Jacqueline really made it amazing! I can't wait til this summer when we all get together again with our little babies!!!

Mommies/Friends for life!!!

I'm I squashing her?

Thu, 25 Feb 2010 01:24:00 +0000

WoooHooo

ONLY 56 DAYS TO GO!!!

Ok I'm sure you’re laughing right now LOL but really when I sleep I feel like I'm squashing her!!! I lay on my left side like they say to, well that is until my hip goes numb then I switch to the right till that side goes numb... and this is my night =D

I ask if I'm squashing her because I always feel her move like crazy when I lay on either side... I'm glad I can finally feel her but I still have that question in the back of my head...

Anyways TOMORROW is another BIG DAY for us!!!

We have our week 32 ultrasound =D

It's really a "growth ultrasound" so be sure to check back tomorrow for updated pictures of our little baby Brianna =D

Thanks for reading!!!

xoxo

gayle

Decided to change the WORM...

Wed, 24 Feb 2010 23:07:00 +0000

Brianna's Nursery!!!

Tigger is DONE!

Now all we have left to do is Eeyore =D

To see ALL our picture's CLICK "Gallery" at the TOP =D

Week 31 the hard facts...

Wed, 24 Feb 2010 22:55:00 +0000

This is CRAZY & it will DRIVE YOU CRAZY if you let it!!!

Yes I'm talking about Gestational Diabetes.

Today is Week 32 for me & Day 16 of knowing I have GD.

They say knowing is 1/2 the battle RIGHT!?

Week 31 Doctor Appt... (2/17/2010)

Met with the GD Dietitian to review my Blood Sugar level's...

Some days were good & some days weren't but the weird thing is I ate the SAME thing each day & walked 20-30mins after each meal, but I wasn't walking after dinner which was where I was getting a HIGH reading...

Here are a few readings...

DAY 13: 95, 98, 131, 87

DAY 14: 76, 142, 131, 140

DAY 15: 80, 114, 117, 109

TODAY: 83, 105, 94, ?

RED is bad! Here's what they want the reading to be...

1st thing in the AM (Fasting) 60-90

1hr after Breakfast <120

1hr after Lunch <120

1hr after Dinner <120

So she said "you have a few HIGH Readings that I don't like. Let's go one more week and see if you can control it without meds, but we may have to put you on meds to help control your dinner reading." I was SUPER UPSET meaning I cried... but I know they aren't going to mis-lead me! So if I can't control my BS then YES I'll have to go on meds...

Fast forward to Monday (2/22/2010)...

My readings were CRAZY and I was feeling HOPELESS! So I called her just like she said & left a message. After doing that I got online and researched GD Meds... The stuff I read was NOT good in my book! Plus I want to avoid meds at all cost!!! I googled Glyburide, Precosse, & Glucophage. Then the GD lady called me back and asked for my readings... then she said ok I'm going to call in a RX for you for Glyburide. I was like NO THANK YOU!!! She said WHY & I said I read stuff about that med & I didn't like what I read. She said ok let?s try a not so strong med then (Glucophage). I agreed and now have a whole bottle of meds I'm scared to touch!

Back to my appt (2/17/2010)

My Doctor came in and scanned my belly =D Brianna was head down =D then we talked a little about GD & how I may need to go on meds... Then she talked about my Blood Pressure which is still HIGH (141/91) but she hasn't upped my dose yet although she said she may at my next appt... She also said I may develop preeclampsia so I need to be on the lookout for swelling of the hands and face among other things. Then she said she wants to give me Non-Stress Test starting around Week 34 but she'll decide on that at my next appt (Week 33).

So that about it for our Week 31 appt...

How am I feeling TODAY?

I say today because each day is different... For the most part I feel FINE! Just confused on how crazy our bodies are!!! I mean look at this... I always wake-up at 9am. Well if I decide to sleep in til 10am my Blood Sugar will be over the limit, if I decide to walk longer then 30mins my BS will go up, if I don't walk at all my BS will stay high, if I miss a meal my body will make it own BS causing my BS reading to be BAD. It hard BUT I'm doing my BEST to NOT TAKE ANY OF THE PILLS I HAVE SITTING IN THE KICHEN!!! So far so good! ps... I only have 8 more weeks to go!!!

In a way I'm grateful to have a chance to see what it's like to live with diabetes, but in NO WAY do I wish this on ANYONE!!! and tell me this WHY don't restaurant have menu's for people living with diabetes? Don't you think if they did it won't be as hard to control it??? Just a thought!

Thanks for reading & Thanks for all the SUPPORT!!!

xoxo

gayle

Venting... Gestational Diabetes

Sat, 13 Feb 2010 23:08:00 +0000

I'm beyond HUNGRY & I feel so alone!!!

You see today is DAY 5 of my GD diet... Some days are good, but hard due to being hungry & other days I just can't seem to get it right... Remember I'm only on day 5, and I want to believe it will get easier but not having a job & having to eat 6 times a day is HARD!!!

So today I had to wake up early for the misters BDay... Long story short I knew my reading would be high (81) ate my normal BF and my reading was (136) then I ate 2x my snack because I was so hungry then Lunch came around... Again I'm HUNGRY... I had some rice cakes (mini's) and a salad w/chicken... I look at the mister and noticed he was asleep so I got a bag of Peanut M&M's.... I know this is going to be bad so I log online (the bump)to see if maybe JUST maybe someone else is going through this too. HUNGRY ALL THE TIME...

I’ve been on a diet... lost 75 pounds but this is nothing like that! Diets are normally hard the 1st few days then they get easier, but this is HARD! Ok I'm sure you get my point & I hope you feel my pain!!!

Here's where I'm lost... I also have High Blood Pressure been on meds since age 23.... I know nothing about the effects GD has on Brianna, I mean I know they say you can have a LARGE baby but what happens when the readings are over 120?

Here are my readings....

Day One: 82, 129, 132, 154

Day Two: 72, 112, 107, 130

Day Three: 93, 129, 125, 154

Day Four: 76, 147, 98, 103

Day Five: 81, 136, 142 (after lunch/m&m's)

I noticed the KEY is eat & walk or do something (busy work) but at dinner I usually don't eat on the plan because of lack of food... but the mister got paid yesterday so I hope this next week will get better!!! I mean DO I NEED TO CALL THE DOC? I don't want to go on meds! If I do go on meds how will they help?

THANKS IN ADVANCE FOR READING MY LONG POST!!! Sorry for the vent!!!

xoxo -gayle

Next Doc Appt: Feb 17th

Welcome

Are you still there?

Cinch!

REALITY ---- FOOD ---- DEPRESSED?

2011 - The PLAN

SIX WEEK'S POSTPARTUM

New BABY & NO TIME to post *sad face*

Daddy's Girl!!!

We have a NEW FAMILY MEMBER!!!!

Week 37 "Growth Ultrasound"

Non-Stess Test...

Eeyore is DONE!!!

Week 35 Check-Up...

Week 33 Update (didn't have a chance to post this...)

A day in the life... "Gestational Diabetes"

Video Update: Week 35

Our Birthing Class has come to an END...

I'm I squashing her?

Decided to change the WORM...

Week 31 the hard facts...

Venting... Gestational Diabetes

New BABY & NO TIME to post sad face